I’ve hit the unfortunate realisation that I’m quite sure I’ve lost my 2 best friends, this isn’t to say that they are dead far from that actually.
But more so the fact that I hardly ever see them anymore. I completely understand that we have our own lives outside of hanging out and that we’re all very busy however I’ve been feeling more and more like a pest to them with each passing day, the fact that I’m always the one to ask to hang out or strike up a conversation is only making me feel more and more distant.
Now this isn’t me being angry or trying to make them sound like bad people. In all honesty they’re probably the 2 greatest people I’ve ever known.
This is simply one of the harsh facts of life than I can say without a doubt that I’m sure they would no longer consider me a best friend of theirs, and to be honest that hurts more than most things would to hear.
Daniel and Liam will always be my best friends, they’ve stuck by me through thick and thin and we’ve watched each other grow up. So as I lay in bed and write this to whomever is reading it currently the point is this.
They will always be my best friends, anything they need whenever they need it if it is in my power to give it to them then I shall. But I can’t help but feel that I am no longer a real part of their life, turning into a friend that is just spoken to fondly at gatherings of mutual friends or birthdays.
I guess this is growing up, but it’s honestly one of the most gut wrenching things I’ve ever tryed to deal with.